Happiness?

For the first time in a long time I have been happy, looking back over the summer I didn’t realize how unhappy and depressed I have been. It had become the norm for me to be isolated in a dark room surrounded by computers with the shades drawn and black out cloth over the windows. Having a friend in the neighborhood that has ostracized our family for so long has been a surprising blessing, unfortuantly I feel I am becoming to happy and optimistic, I know I should not allow hope. Although unfortunately I have fallen in love with this wonderful lady. She is smart, sassy, gorgeous and caring.

It breaks my heart to know she has been hurt and that she has gone through such dark times, although I would not change that for it is what has helped make her the incredible person she is today and I would not change who she is.

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